Renewing my commitment to heal my body

Hi. Well it's mid-February 2009. Last year, at the start of the year, I made a commitment to heal my body one day at a time. It's been a journey but in the summer of 2008 I hooked up with Eshe (via the internet and phone). I began the parasite cleanse, among other things that she prescribed. By November 2008 I received news from my gyn that my cysts (on both ovaries) had shrunk - nearly 50% of there size. Last June was the last time I've experienced the debiliting pain that would literally knock me off my feet. I still have a small fibroid (based on the last sonogram done in October) and a recent coposcopy (biopsy) showed that I still have low grade cell abnormality. I also continue to test positive for high-risk HPV. The good news is that the cell abnormality is very low grade and my GYN is not recommending any type of invasive procedure. She wants to continue taking pap smear samples every three months. I am taking it one day at a time, and I pray for patience and endurance. I certainly have my slips, like I've been consuming lots of cheese, chicken and turkey. On a positive note I gave up coffee and soda three weeks ago, and have been drinking lots of distilled water. On the spiritual side, prayer and meditation is a part of my daily life, and I journal a lot too. I'm also finally working on the VISION BOARD that Eshe suggested I complete last summer. Well I bought the board and collected many, many magazines but kept putting the project on the back burner. Recently (this past week) I've devoted about a 1/2 hour to an hour a day sifting through the pages, and cutting out images and words that appeal to me. Oh sure, sometimes that inner critic takes hold and tells me "You don't even know what you want yet. Or, You don't know what kind of home you want so why do this..." but by taking baby steps I'm actually getting somewhere. Now for the BIG NEWS and Eshe if you read my blog post I would LOVE your feedback (and please anyone else's too). I've been working for a school for the past two years in Miami. I've been teaching for 13 years and honestly I'm ready for something different and something more. But anyway last Thursday morning (one week ago) I found out, along with approximately 20 other teachers, that I won't be getting a contract renewal for next school year. I'm getting laid off. I'll get to finish out this school year, which ends early June, and I'll get paid until August 15th, but after that I won't have a job at this school. In short. I'm not sure what's next and overall I've been praying a lot, and meditating a lot to maintain my connection to HIGHER POWER and stay in a state of serenity. But last night anxiety hit me and I woke up feeling pangs of fear in my chest....Anyway as I work on this vision board I'm trying to free myself to truly put up images that represent all aspects of the life I want to create. so any advice would be most welcome (both on the health front and economic/job front). Blessings to ALL. And Eshe, I want to join any master mind circle you may have created.